Someone seen me

Can someone see me for myself

As I sit here on this shelf

Collecting dust

I begin to rust

Can someone occupy my mind

Of this that does bind

A mental disorder concoction 

My sanity up for auction 

Can someone find my soul

And dig me out of this hole

Goosebumps and tingles

My chains jingle

Can someone hear my pleas 

Too many times found on my knees

Begging for escape

Of my lifeless shape 

Can someone see I've changed

This whole time feeling estranged 

Under attack

Fighting back

Can someone see

See, Just me

Winter's morn.

On my window the soft patter of these frozen flakes

That soothe me as I wake

Under the warmth of cover 

Next to my lover

A feeling I cannot fake

If i could hold the clock hands from ticking

These cherished moments for the picking 

I lay here wishing

For more than one thing 

As the hours keep trickling 

Theres now a rustling of the leaves

Being tossed by the cold breeze

Start the morning coffee 

I'm becoming a softy

We'll be warm as the outside freeze

For its certain the cold of winter approaches 

With no warning or written notices

Season change as does life 

Tomorrow will you still want to be my wife 

In a wedding ceremony with hores drawn coaches 

In this fleeting dream

Things are not as they seem

I wake in my bed

Alone instead

As the sun begins to beam.

Step On me

I wish you could see inside my head

the wonderful things you could dread

I wish you could see my dreams

so I could hear your screams

I wish you were alone with me tonight

I know I wouldn’t put up a fight

just three words you could break me (I love you)

weakening me to one knee

you're so overwhelming

when you’re not complaining

you've got where you want me

step on me

get a little bit higher

when you step on me

I’m your solid ground

don’t make a sound

this is where I’m found

when you step on me

when I’m here for you

you step on me

you could be on fire and never feel it

I gave you my all and you gave me shit

you could have been honest with me

but then you would have some humility

You could have worn a crown

instead used it to beat me down

just three words and I was gone (let me know)

thrown out like garbage on your lawn

you're so overwhelming

when you're contemplating

you got me where you want me

step on me

get a little bit higher

when you step on me

I’m beaten into the ground

can’t make a sound

my voice is downed

when you stepped on me

when was there for you

you stepped on me

can I run this by you

as you run away like you do

can I have some satisfaction

in having some say apart from your faction

I was always a part of the conversation

never in it, but waiting for your revelation

Just three words that were a lie (maybe one day)

then you end me with a sigh

you're so overwhelming

when you're not reciprocating

you got me where you want me

step on me

get a little bit higher

when you step on me

I’m not your ground

don’t make a sound

I won’t be found

when you try to step on me

when I’m not here for you

you try to step on me

If I were

If I were to be an Angel, God would make you my wings

the way you care for me makes makes my heart sing

If I were to preach the gospel to all nations, every person tall and wide

he'd give me the perfect companion in you, and have you by my side

If I were to lead a church and bring the lost to Christ the most high

I'd want to do that with you and rightly so, so on one could question why

If I were to be a prophet and speak his mind

it would be through your voice, a voice that's so kind

If I were to be the best mate for you

God will aid me in all i do

I haven't posted in forever, finally have reason to again :)

Break Free

--Break Free



Break Free
You're breaking me
Put me back together again
I'm made perfect in you

Break Free
You're healing me
Today you saved me again
I'm growing close to you

Break Free
You're unleashing me
with the Holy Spirit again
I'm following after you

Break Free
You're here for me
With your arms open again
I"m living for you

The answer is US

our lives look great in pictures
stale memories of the past
the pain of today not forgotten
good times never seem to last

words sound great in our heads
but a mess when mixed with paper
we keep our feelings down deep inside
that way everyone's a little safer

in all reality its the quite ones
that go by with just a smile
hiding the hurt we've caused them
yet they always go the extra mile

before you go and judge someone today
remember they're just like you
there is a solution that doesn't include "ME"
but starts with "U"

You're pure beauty (set me free)

You're pure beauty, I'm just a beast

I was hungry you gave me a feast 

Show me your love as my prayers will not cease

You're pure beauty, send me your peace

Ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh

Set me free

Ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh

Till I'm on my knees

Dear beloved, touch my soul

Send me your spirit, until I am full

Send me your love till I can feel the pull

Dear Beloved, I give you my soul

Ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh 

Set me free

Ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh 

Till I'm on my knees

Oh my savior, I'm in too deep

You said I love you, feed my sheep

Send me you love, as I take the leap

Oh my savior, comfort me as I weep

Ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh 

Set me free

Ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh ohhhhh 

Till I'm on my knees

the back slide

I've slid back so far
i cant see me any more
I've fell down into a hole
that i was never in before
I hid there for a while
rejecting your helping hand
not ready to leave my sorry
and once again stand

when i was down
wanting no one around
i pushed you away
when i was broken
no words to be spoken
i would dread today
now you lift me
so i can see
this is the debt you pay

this is the back slide
this is the bad side
of me
this is the back slide
when i run and hide
from me
this is the back slide
where our souls collide
inevitably

I slid back but what for
now i don't see me anymore
all i can see is you
and all the things you do
i cant hide your love lord
and you have answered my plea
i finally see you lord
i can finally see you in me

when i was down
wanting no one around
i pushed you away

what i stand for

father, son, and spirit; i pray we all hear it
this is my creed.
i want to plant this seed
hear me now and listen; I'm a bold christian
i want to scream it out
come on now shout

this is, this is my heart
this is, this is what i stand for


this is what i stand for
faithful with some so you give me more
this is what i stand for
i live for you 'cause you died for me
this is what i stand for
you fill me up, and then fill me more
this is what i stand for
this is what i stand for

you remind me

you prayed on the mountain
not you will but mine
you gave your life for me
you gave me eternity


ooooooo you remind me
by your body
by your blood
by your cross
by your love
ooooooo you remind me
by the bread
by the wine
by the love
by the sign
ooooooo you remind me

you were bruised and beaten
abused and mistreated
you gave your life for me
you gave me eternity

ooooooo you remind me
by your body
by your blood
by your cross
by your love
ooooooo you remind me
by the bread
by the wine
by the love
by the sign
ooooooo you remind me

you were nailed to the cross
the worlds greatest loss
you gave your life for me
you gave me eternity

Christian Poem 1

I need filled with your goodness.
I need to feel your presence.
Lift me up beyond myself
with your loves incomparable wealth

Rid me of these briars of sin I run through
and let me walk peacefully next to you
When i trip and stumble along the way
I know you're still there and I'm OK

Here's to you; this is me
Your life exhibit in my reflection.
Here's to you; life in me
Make a the vessel of your living water
Here's from you; gift to me
Your life was taken for my soul survival
Here's to you; all i am
A forever follower of the great I AM.

Status

this one had a little inspiration behind it. but i like it so far. i think i'll work on this to make it into a song...let me know what you think.




Sometimes I talk too much because I’m too afraid to listen
Shattered pieces of my heart always seem to glisten
Through this smile that’s all a front of a lesser disposition
Pull it all together and get back on this mission
Find the one that makes your heart beat like a drummer
The one that makes so hot you always think its summer
Her eyes tell a story that makes you lose a breath
When she’s not around I’m twitchin' like I’m some meth
Sometimes I care too much because I’m afraid of rejection
So I have realized that I’m in quite an odd position
I want to be with you but not to jeopardize our relation
What we have is good; it’s understood, no further iteration
Where to go from here is now the standing mystery
I guess the rest of the story wont be know till its history

Sonnet 1

Haven't written a sonnet in quite some time. Thought I'd take a stab at one. let me know what you think:


I'm realizing I have nothing but time
to be me and pursue what I'm wanting
To convey it all to you in this rhyme
a task to me, that is a bit daunting

I have found things in you that are so true
beauty for one, I can so plainly see
a personality that is so you
a smile so warm no one else's will do

I so don't know what to do to get her
her laugh echos in my head all day long
to the point i wish we were together
is this all selfish or is it just wrong

the more I think about it I lose steam
then I suppose this is all just a dream

Betrayed

i betrayed you like a sinner I paid the price and took the ransom kissed your face and turned you over drove the nails in all the deeper take a look around nothing to be found 3x take a look around nothing to be found here i betrayed you like a sinner I paid the price and took the ransom kissed your face and turned you over drove the nails in all the deeper take a look around nothing to be found 3x take a look around nothing to be found here i betrayed you like a sinner I paid the price and took the ransom kissed your face and turned you over drove the nails in all the deeper the deeper i betrayed you like a sinner I paid the price and took the ransom kissed your face and turned you over drove the nails in all the deeper i betrayed you like a sinner I paid the price and took the ransom kissed your face and turned you over drove the nails in all i betrayed you like a sinner you paid the price your life ransom seen your face as you looked over drove the nails in all the deeper